The following is an edited version of a telephone interview given by a stay at home Mum working and living in Bergamo to the editor.
INTERVIEW DATE: 13.05.20
How are you doing today?
I am good. Honestly coming out of the lockdown has been harder for me. The uncertainty for our families future and so many others, this has me scared. During the lockdown I felt more focused like I had a responsibility. Not just for my family but to everyone else. I knew my actions then and now could impact many. I did not break the rules because that could lead to someone getting sick. I did not go back home to my family because the risk would travel with me. I stayed as strong as I could. Posting more regularly on Instagram was a good reassurance for my family… they knew we were okay… We were the lucky ones.
What worries you the most about this pandemic?
I am worried about all the people who are sick and all of the families who have lost people to this.
I am worried about the economy. I am not sure how this is going to unravel.
What is the nicest thing someone has done for you?
My husband has been an amazing lifeline during all of this. I have some friends & family who stayed in touch. Almost everyday I had a message from my Mother and Aunt telling me she was thinking of us. My Mother and Aunt organised medicine shipment for me today when I had thought I had run out of options. Finally a workout group that kept me laughing and jumping almost everyday, kept me smiling and made me feel strong!
What was the nicest thing you did for someone else?
I tried to be there for people as best I could. I don’t know whether or not that made a difference, but it was good vibes and energy I was giving back to the universe. So that has to amount to something …. right?… Also I stayed home!
What are your kids saying about the virus?
Our son is a bit young to understand what is happening. I think this time has been good for him, he has mum and dad all to himself. He said ‘coronavirus’ yesterday when we were out cycling… I am not sure he understood its meaning. But, it hit me hard. I think at the beginning of this one of the hardest parts was the sense of powerlessness. Not feeling like we had any way of protecting our loved ones from it. I felt responsible…this is the world I chose to bring you into…my child… you deserve better. We all do.
In five years from now, what do you want to remember about the virus?
I want to remember how hard I worked… to remember how good that felt. I want to remember that it is okay not to be perfect all the time.
I want to remember this as a time where our lives restarted, when we reenterd this world, as better people. It is foolish to think that this has not changed us. It has, I value so much more and need so much less.
As Karl Sagan said ‘For all our failings, despite our limitations and fallibilities, we humans are capable of greatness’.